The Pain :/
Sorry, but I had to share this. I feel it so much... but my words are not enough to to express those emotions, even if I did; I might again and again be considered week and vulnerable with those feelings as these people won't ever understand me truly and how deeply I am concerned, I know at times I might be vulnerable I might be too emotionally attached, there is actually a trauma related to it which I felt and was so shakened by it that it kinda reshaped and forged me into this, I was never like this never ever... but unfortunately due to those mis-happenings which occurred about 4 years ago, they have me shaped my inner core into this and I have seriously tried hard, a lot hard and at times even after failing I have kept trying to regain myself and have restored a lot but still not completely .... Last year too I was so left out and had nobody with me that day, I could have gone there but to the root level, to those beautiful people my ugly ass would just be a burdensome experie...